been lazy

been reading, surfing, watching shows online, meeting friends... its been a lazy May

Just one of those weeks I don't feel like writing or sorting the photos in the camera... btw just found my camera which has been missing for weeks, was in V's little handbag *bleah...

Spent the last one week, going everywhere! shopping, lunching, swimming, suntanning, boozing... basically chilling out... great time to recharge, find directions in my life, getting back an identity and rediscovering me-self.

So... I was suppose to go back to work, went for interview etc.. then when it was time to decide, I backed out. I thought back about what I wrote in my blog during my birthday and realized that by me going back flying isn't what I want as a mother now. So I sat down with DD T and spoke about it.. my hb has always been very supportive in whatever I do.. the day I said I wanted to go; he said okie and supported me .. and now with a new decision he still supported me. *sweets

I guess at that time when I submitted my request to go back was when BB [V] was already one, then there was the screaming phrase and the Dr's advice to detach.. I somehow wanted to feel wanted and useful again. Of course going back to my old job was the easiest way, earning back my 60-70k annum was also very ideal. But when everything was about settled, I had cold feet... coz I spoke to myself this time and realized that how many women have a luxury to look after a child and not work? By me having so much money, am I going to be happy? Is this what I want?

I see the other mummies getting upset with the lack of time with their children... though sometimes I know that I do not appreciate this precious time with BB [V] especially those days she does things that gets me all upset.. I still think that I am damn bloody F lucky to be in my position! Yes there were times when I feel that money is tight; (pls consider the fact that I have overflowing cash in the past) but I think; how bad is it that I do have a "Tai Tai" lifestyle with a luxury car to drive, a credit card to sign. I suppose the more you compare, the worse it sucks.

As I was all down and was not able to fiqure out my life 1 month ago..

I did mention that about the skincare that my gf recommended; Mary Kay... I did join them to get discounts for my new range of skincare that I wanted to get for my toiletries bag for my flying. I bought a anti-aging range and the makeups; my green shadows, red lipticks etc.. whahah (don't koe what to do with it now)

My girlfriend suggested that I should go for a ESRS (essential steps to reach success) course and since I was free and I went... in that class I learnt so much about this lady that founded this company 47 years ago and saw her vision that she had for the women in her life. How she created a company to reach women and enrich them...

This was the words that made me changed my mind....

Words of wisdom from Mary Kay Ash: "God first, Family second, Career third" if you know your priorities in life, they will all fall in place.