16 months (ME)

So its has 2 years since I am myself (2 years ago I got pregnant 9 months, 15 months of breastfeeding)....

It was the best and worst journey of my life! the ups and downs were like roller coaster, from happiness of getting pregnant, worrying about everything that came along, tears of joy when V was born, frustration of the confinement, excitement when she started to crawl, walk, irritation of the screaming ways of a manipulative baby, and the day she called me mummy - everything was forgiven...

I made a decision to stop breastfeeding because I need to find myself again, the identity that I once had slowly diminished and what I saw everyday was a frumpy, drumpy, humpty dumpty LOL. It was obvious the 2 years devoted to solely to her although was a feat, motherhood does drains a women off real quick and fast. By the way if you still see yourself "I never change much" then balls to you... even if you have like gazillion helpers, how can one not age?

So this month I got back my boobies, lost 2 kg (2 more to go, okie the thing is this was my pre preggers weight BUT this was my after 11 days of new york toronto weight! its 2 kg more to my normal weight! 5 more to my wedding day weight-something I don't see EVER), coloured my hair - needed to spruce the look up abit, did shopping for clothes that can see my curves type (not 2 piece clothes so bf mummy), bought HEELS! (think my feet grew 0.5 in size and so my heels are relatively tighter leh), conscientiously did my masks and use my Mary Kay. (need to start on the eyes soon)

So I gain back the confidence as in the looks factor, better sex life... Its interesting what humans crave for in life just to get that boost of confidence. Like some will crave for promotion, earn more money, go out to gallivant, start a business, change partner (I'm sure there are ppl like this), go find a different job, volunteer, go back to study again, get pregnant....

I'm still thinking of what to do... I always wondered how some people can survive staying at home for such long period of time and find their worth. But as I'm in this position, now I know why "Tai Tais" go do volunteer work coz most of the time money is not a drawing factor and seeing other people happy is a greater accomplishment. I fall in this category, DD T hates this about me... I don't get entice by money but yet want money lol... As a businessman like him, he always wonder why he married a woman with brains of charity. Keke.. I never find making money NO 1, I always go for feel factor (there is a term of people like me, I studied before.. but cannot remember lar) I make friends very easily and if they get too pessimistic, I draw myself away. DD T always tell me to go study psychology as I'm always the person when my friends need a listening ear. I sit there and watch them cry... then I cry, coz so poor thing. (he says to be a psychiatrist, at least I get paid by the hour and is always good to be paid to cry, at least there is a reason to cry.. so business man RIGHT? ) So thats why I don't make friends who are pessimistic coz they influence me much.

So.... If I go volunteer, I sure get scolding... next best thing was to get myself involve in Mary Kay.. coz of the difference I see in my skin... People always say "wa lau Flo, skin already so gd, wat u want?" Eh hello, the issue here is my skin got not much scars I agree, but got see dull skin or not? dull as in no shine, no glow. Dead like a fish! Kena ask "never sleep huh" In my heart WTF motherhood got sleep one meh? What I mean by glow is when you walk down the streets in the day, there are times you will take a 2nd look at a person right? I'm talking about FACE here.. and the face got radiance, something like a shine (not oil huh) esp the 3 points of the face cheek areas n just above the forehead. (pls not chinese ghost story too) the skin is taut not droopy, not sullen... even without makeup, must have! means skin is in good condition. Okie my explanation not very goods... aiya u know the skin you have during pregnancy? the shine everywhere? ya like that la...

Me got back my shine.. so now must maintain... I started off with the anti aging set, then the gurus came and told me for dull skin must mask... intensive treatment mah. So I damn on, Firming mask then hydro mask in 2 days and repeat. Slowly my glow came back *SMILES* so happy now. Next month will be do apply serum to rejuvenate and make skin mei mei... even Dd T got hooked, I will apply when he play his Xbox... he damn onz too, will remind me to do it... Guess as you age, you can't be lazy anymore. Honest, please don't sit there and say I fat, ugly, like aunty! then say everyday... who help u?

I go attend classes when the gurus come, just to pass time and have women adult interaction! Learn new things each time, please ha I'm not going to open beauty salon or what not.. just enriching my brain a little. I love her philosophy in life, like how she enrich women, to educate them about beauty and confidence. Dropped by many times in their office for classes taught by people of higher ranks and listen to their motivation talks makes me think how successful this entrepreneur is. To be like her one day? not sure la.. I'm too kind to be a business person... Though many see a potential in me to do my own business but maybe now is not the time. For now I just share my knowledge...

Now I get excited when I see friends doing business while being a SAHM... I like to patronize them... its always fun. Was chatting with Jon's mummy that day and she was telling me that she wants to work in Macdonald's, I was me too!! Though her hb disprove as her salary can't pay off her car... keke You see, mummies like us crave for social interaction and money is hardly an issue.

DD T always tell me this while I'm looking for my directions " be a master of something. not a jack of all rubbish"

End note: I have people asking what is this product all about. Please read this this webbie http://www.marykay.com.sg/

I currently use Timewise Miracle set, Botanical Formula Mask 2, Intense Moisturizing Cream + Oil Free Hydrating Gel as a mask, Lip mask and Lip balm.

For those interesting in earning as passive income, can email me at florindatay@yahoo.com