I had a dream- Those pregnancy hormones caused ones.
I was in the shower this morning and told trev of it
"hey I dreamed u were screwing around"
"wat around"
"screwing"
"with ur friends?"
"ya I think so... "
"so...."
"in my dream I demanded $10,000 in alimony"
"that's all?!!"
"ya, but in the end I decided to go out, spend ur money, have many boyfriends and screwed aroun too"
"okie that sounds more like what you will do" and walks out of the toilet
So much for hormonal dreams that tells the truth...
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
How i'm getting along
I have been having this nagging pain on my right hip, it terrible as I can't sit for long and it hurts. Which explains my lack of blogging, I'm infront of the laptop of 30 mins max.The pain is around the hip bone at the bum area, u know that 2 bones that curves in? yea there... its aching so much. I have trouble getting out of bed especially if I just lie down, need about an hour of stretch before it doesn't hurt as much. My massage lady is not keen on doing my massage for me, she has her logic and I respect it. so its up to me to fix my bad habit.
Been reminding myself not to sleep on my right for too long, but thats the only position I fall deep sleep in. So... man, not a winning formula. I have been clocking in sleep daily, maximising 12 hours daily, a pig like this. Today I woke up at 1230pm, yikes I know... like a swine. But its another month before insomnia kicks in and there is nothing I can do. Daddy is on a trip and 2-4 more before I pop, so night duties is still a chore. What night duty u may ask? Well, its making sure V doesn't roll away (terrible sleeper) or that her top is rolled up and exposing her stomach or that the blanket is kicked away, freezing her tiny toes cold.
Potty training has been real successful and she has been off sleep diapers for 1.5 months, I will stay awake till 130-2am to do her last pee and she sleeps to 8am for her next (daddy's duty). We cannot remove that 130am pee as its her last milk of the night collection. So we will tweak it eventually when she is older. Will do a post on how we did it...
Yea, so life has been relaxing. I do 3 appointments a week now and sleeping or lying down most of the other. Its time to slow down and plan for the future. There are loads of plans in the pipeline for the family and its all about the right timing to execute. Thats y my husband is frightened when I'm too free, coz my brain works 3 x more, then its hard for him to keep up. But I have learnt to give him time...
Been reminding myself not to sleep on my right for too long, but thats the only position I fall deep sleep in. So... man, not a winning formula. I have been clocking in sleep daily, maximising 12 hours daily, a pig like this. Today I woke up at 1230pm, yikes I know... like a swine. But its another month before insomnia kicks in and there is nothing I can do. Daddy is on a trip and 2-4 more before I pop, so night duties is still a chore. What night duty u may ask? Well, its making sure V doesn't roll away (terrible sleeper) or that her top is rolled up and exposing her stomach or that the blanket is kicked away, freezing her tiny toes cold.
Potty training has been real successful and she has been off sleep diapers for 1.5 months, I will stay awake till 130-2am to do her last pee and she sleeps to 8am for her next (daddy's duty). We cannot remove that 130am pee as its her last milk of the night collection. So we will tweak it eventually when she is older. Will do a post on how we did it...
Yea, so life has been relaxing. I do 3 appointments a week now and sleeping or lying down most of the other. Its time to slow down and plan for the future. There are loads of plans in the pipeline for the family and its all about the right timing to execute. Thats y my husband is frightened when I'm too free, coz my brain works 3 x more, then its hard for him to keep up. But I have learnt to give him time...
Sunday, July 22, 2012
wats up?
So we are about ready for the arrival.. so i think
I started nesting when I was about 5 months, ya its crazy. I cleared the kitchen, created space.. actually not me. I instructed it.... it was a insane week, Trev had to pull out the old baby stuffs from the warehouse, cleared stuffs. My reason was that I won't want to do anything when I'm in my last trimester and that baby stuffs are way cheaper in States. I needed to know what is needed.
I bought only newborn stuffs most as I have given them away, if not, most have milk stain and I threw them out. Still in need of booties and mittens coz I didn't keep any for it was so unhygienic. Hahahah.. nothing special this time round, like most 2nd time parents, most things that were bought for the 1st were a waste of money. So this round, buy only when is necessary... We even had a conversation on milk bottles, going the brands that we should use. Trev answer was "its really not for us to chose, it the baby's choice" now that is what we call an experience daddy. It was the same for the pacifier talk, on whether we should give one to the baby, "My dear, you forgot how we stuffed it into V's mouth and she keeps spitting it out?" Think we went through 3-4 different brands and finally realized she doesn't like IT. So this time round, he will go and get the stuffs only when requested, no point stocking things up.
V has been waiting IMPATIENTLY on the arrival.... she has given up asking "WHY SO LONG MUMMY?" it was really cute the 1st time she asked... now she just comes up and hug the stomach, kisses it. On days she will talk to the baby on her daily updates but most of the time she will sing. This round, I didn't let baby listen to much music and her prenatal education is listening to daddy and me read stories to V every night. Blessed definitely... baby does her waves during that time, basically approving of it loads.
Enjoy the video of V singing ...
Its soon i guess... my back just started to hurt on my right. So the weight has kicked in .... u know its about time when visits to the gynae has become tighter.
I started nesting when I was about 5 months, ya its crazy. I cleared the kitchen, created space.. actually not me. I instructed it.... it was a insane week, Trev had to pull out the old baby stuffs from the warehouse, cleared stuffs. My reason was that I won't want to do anything when I'm in my last trimester and that baby stuffs are way cheaper in States. I needed to know what is needed.
I bought only newborn stuffs most as I have given them away, if not, most have milk stain and I threw them out. Still in need of booties and mittens coz I didn't keep any for it was so unhygienic. Hahahah.. nothing special this time round, like most 2nd time parents, most things that were bought for the 1st were a waste of money. So this round, buy only when is necessary... We even had a conversation on milk bottles, going the brands that we should use. Trev answer was "its really not for us to chose, it the baby's choice" now that is what we call an experience daddy. It was the same for the pacifier talk, on whether we should give one to the baby, "My dear, you forgot how we stuffed it into V's mouth and she keeps spitting it out?" Think we went through 3-4 different brands and finally realized she doesn't like IT. So this time round, he will go and get the stuffs only when requested, no point stocking things up.
V has been waiting IMPATIENTLY on the arrival.... she has given up asking "WHY SO LONG MUMMY?" it was really cute the 1st time she asked... now she just comes up and hug the stomach, kisses it. On days she will talk to the baby on her daily updates but most of the time she will sing. This round, I didn't let baby listen to much music and her prenatal education is listening to daddy and me read stories to V every night. Blessed definitely... baby does her waves during that time, basically approving of it loads.
Enjoy the video of V singing ...
Its soon i guess... my back just started to hurt on my right. So the weight has kicked in .... u know its about time when visits to the gynae has become tighter.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
@ 7 months
So we are sort of sure of baby's name... It's going to be a beautiful one. :)
The baby is now at 1.2 kg, so that's what my gynae says. No machine checking of weight etc, just his pure hands.. (as usual). V was 3.42kg when born and this baby is going to be on the same track ... So my last 1.5 months is going to be pretty tough carrying this weight. We have put in 6kg till date, and everyone around has commented that I lost weight.. It's pretty odd for a pregnant woman.. Can't really explain, but I do feel lighter, ass got smaller. Stomach just grows... Blessing I guess. Those who don't know me gets alarmed when I stand up to see that I'm pregnant, those who knows I am is commenting how tiny my stomach is. Lol
Me n daddy was looking through my old pregnant photos, me with many questions on how I look... He - everything is same same same. Men *rolls eyes
I can't sleep yet, just had a bowl of instant Maggie curry noodle... Its back to 1st trimester of wanting hot soup. Tomorrow I will see if I can get double boiled soup somewhere.. Ya the trick of staying slim this pregnancy... Baby has teochew palette. Nice, light, hot.... I think it's absurd if I tell u that I had McDonalds' only once this pregnancy. Ya no junk.. Not like those days I was carrying V. Lunch is usually baked/grilled salmon & cod if there are marketing done that morning.
Need to get a photo for recording purpose ... Or rather more excited documenting this!
Friday, July 13, 2012
personal time
This week has been crazy...
I was in a terrible mood, the weather didn't help me much. In this pregnancy, it happened somewhere abouts the 3rd month at about March. I felt that surge of hormones being downloaded and it was pure irritable. Trev was in Germany and I though it was because I missed him.. called and there were tears and all. He came back and immediately wanted to bring me to go shopping, asked me if I needed a new handbag or something.... I actually rejected him. Ya to a new expensive something I didn't have to ask for.. hahha
So this round, it happened again. I was at Dr Han's yesterday.... as usual he asked his questions and I didn't have anything to ask. But I did however told him "I'm not sure if its the weather that is driving me insane, but I cannot tolerate incompetencies!" He and his nurse laughed, "That is pregnancy hormones, you are normal" But with Victoria I was not that irritated... I think.... *ponders.
Anyway It was affirmed that its just raging hormones, I am a person very sure of myself. Basically hardly a person who sways away from my values, or thoughts and mostly in control of my emotions. Most people can fuck me in the face, but I just will not get affected.. *sometimes. Ya I am strong like that... but I do cry. Thats my weakness.. and its also my strength. That's the way I release tension. . I love crying movies, for they make me cry for no reason except for theirs.
I knew that I was at my breaking point a few days ago when I shouted at my Bam Bam (my dog). She had crystals in her pee and had treatment, made me real tired etc.. will not go into detail. But the gist of it was I shouted and had that urge to cry. I knew that was it..... like I mention, I may shout about but never in anger. V, Bam Bam and Trev do not get me screaming at them like a headless chicken, and I don't hit them (the child and the dog) This round I was pissed. I knew at once this was it... I came back mediated, prayed... digged to the bottom. It hit me that I needed my personal space, I was frustrated coz I had piled up work that I wasn't able to complete. Ever since I returned, I had at each time in the house 2 helpers, my mil and her twin sister, 1 daughter and 2 crazy noisy dogs.
I wrote my husband an email... stating my case of my getaway this weekend. He accepted it, booked me a hotel of my choice. Yes he is supportive like this ... usually I will just book a ticket and fly away.. but I don't think i need to want to travel. Period
It is just amazing... I just got in about 1.30 hours ago and have already got into my work mode. Yes I'm nazi like this... once I work, I forget to stop. But at least its productive to use 2 full days to get 1 month's work done and that once I am back home, I can play barbie, read, feed, bake with V without feeling guilty that my personal work is not completed. This is the result of having too many help, renting out my place to have no personal space. I usually can work at 11pm when the whole world has retired and I have peace... but at the last trimester, working at 11pm is no longer a luxury for lying in bed is more appealing.
I wonder at this point when is my next personal time out...
I was in a terrible mood, the weather didn't help me much. In this pregnancy, it happened somewhere abouts the 3rd month at about March. I felt that surge of hormones being downloaded and it was pure irritable. Trev was in Germany and I though it was because I missed him.. called and there were tears and all. He came back and immediately wanted to bring me to go shopping, asked me if I needed a new handbag or something.... I actually rejected him. Ya to a new expensive something I didn't have to ask for.. hahha
So this round, it happened again. I was at Dr Han's yesterday.... as usual he asked his questions and I didn't have anything to ask. But I did however told him "I'm not sure if its the weather that is driving me insane, but I cannot tolerate incompetencies!" He and his nurse laughed, "That is pregnancy hormones, you are normal" But with Victoria I was not that irritated... I think.... *ponders.
Anyway It was affirmed that its just raging hormones, I am a person very sure of myself. Basically hardly a person who sways away from my values, or thoughts and mostly in control of my emotions. Most people can fuck me in the face, but I just will not get affected.. *sometimes. Ya I am strong like that... but I do cry. Thats my weakness.. and its also my strength. That's the way I release tension. . I love crying movies, for they make me cry for no reason except for theirs.
I knew that I was at my breaking point a few days ago when I shouted at my Bam Bam (my dog). She had crystals in her pee and had treatment, made me real tired etc.. will not go into detail. But the gist of it was I shouted and had that urge to cry. I knew that was it..... like I mention, I may shout about but never in anger. V, Bam Bam and Trev do not get me screaming at them like a headless chicken, and I don't hit them (the child and the dog) This round I was pissed. I knew at once this was it... I came back mediated, prayed... digged to the bottom. It hit me that I needed my personal space, I was frustrated coz I had piled up work that I wasn't able to complete. Ever since I returned, I had at each time in the house 2 helpers, my mil and her twin sister, 1 daughter and 2 crazy noisy dogs.
I wrote my husband an email... stating my case of my getaway this weekend. He accepted it, booked me a hotel of my choice. Yes he is supportive like this ... usually I will just book a ticket and fly away.. but I don't think i need to want to travel. Period
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| the deluxe room |
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| my free mini bar snacks... topped up daily *yummy |
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| my work space is just next to this... |
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| the cosy bed that I can crash |
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| the view... just what i needed.. green and serene |
I wonder at this point when is my next personal time out...
Friday, July 6, 2012
rest and rested
It another week of trying to jump start my engine...
I was supposed to be back full force but when the precious is at home.. I cannot do much. It odd, its happens every time!!! I will go out unless really necessary like my fixed appointments but really cannot do much in terms of my personal work. Even though personal work is done at home, I cannot get it going when she is hanging.. I need peace and quiet when it comes to my personal work. Yes I long for the day I have my own office and that I can go into my space to get things done. But that has to be next year.... plans ;)
So I need to go to Taka to get my baby stuffs.. but hell I cannot get moving out of the house. *crap. I have been just sitting on the dinning table for the last 3 hours, eating and cooking and eating and online. the Princess has been on her ipad the whole time watching her chinese and spanish shows. I got bored and decided to do some blog hopping and stumbled on my gf's sad blog post and choked. I learnt a lesson not to eat and read sad stories.. now i feel sad :(
Sent a text to the husband and asked if he was keen on a date hahaha... movie night for a pregnant women. Dinner is out as the home has his favourite nasi lemak all ready for his arrival. So decided to bring V for a movie night too, (since the adult movies are crappy, spider man and vampire shows? seriously) ... she has been going out nightly with daddy and family for the last 3 nights. Me .. I was doing my own things. I not much care for shopping after my trip for I shopped so much its not funny ;P
Needs to get moving.... move it move it!!!! arghhhhhhhhhh
I was supposed to be back full force but when the precious is at home.. I cannot do much. It odd, its happens every time!!! I will go out unless really necessary like my fixed appointments but really cannot do much in terms of my personal work. Even though personal work is done at home, I cannot get it going when she is hanging.. I need peace and quiet when it comes to my personal work. Yes I long for the day I have my own office and that I can go into my space to get things done. But that has to be next year.... plans ;)
So I need to go to Taka to get my baby stuffs.. but hell I cannot get moving out of the house. *crap. I have been just sitting on the dinning table for the last 3 hours, eating and cooking and eating and online. the Princess has been on her ipad the whole time watching her chinese and spanish shows. I got bored and decided to do some blog hopping and stumbled on my gf's sad blog post and choked. I learnt a lesson not to eat and read sad stories.. now i feel sad :(
Sent a text to the husband and asked if he was keen on a date hahaha... movie night for a pregnant women. Dinner is out as the home has his favourite nasi lemak all ready for his arrival. So decided to bring V for a movie night too, (since the adult movies are crappy, spider man and vampire shows? seriously) ... she has been going out nightly with daddy and family for the last 3 nights. Me .. I was doing my own things. I not much care for shopping after my trip for I shopped so much its not funny ;P
Needs to get moving.... move it move it!!!! arghhhhhhhhhh
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Viral Fever
I came back from my trip and saw that V's lips were pretty red... these are signs of my child getting heaty and I was on a alert, brought her to the pool to cool down. But I guess the inevitable happened.... it was expected as the weather has been atrocious and its about time she gets the fever. On sunday during church, she started some drama and it was in my bones that she was unwell. She doesn't get into the diva mode nowadays unless in pain or discomfort, went back to my mum's, refused dinner, by the time she was in the car she claimed she has a headache.
By the next morning, she was off school and we kept her at home. By nap time it shot up to 38.8 and drove her to the PD's immediately as there was suspected HFMD in school. Well lucky for her (or not) it was a viral fever and had medication; was warned against going to school UNTIL hfmd got cleared clean. Coz any child with viral fever gets it bad if they catch the hfmd.... she did at massive puke in the car on Aunty Nita and by night after one does of the magic viral medication. She miraculously recovered! I have no idea if it was the puke or the meds... but there was a youtube marathon and she insisted on baking today. I had to go and get the stuffs... wanted to upload her photos but have no idea how to do on my s3. *crap
Thought today I will share with you how we keep V real healthy as the counts of her catching something is real minimal (we are pretty impressed with her record) and its important that I should share with all of you what we do.
1.She has Everon C every morning when she wakes up, before she is whisked off to school -seriously not sure if it works but think it fights pretty well.
2. When she gets back from school/walks/outings, she has to wash her hands and feet before she steps into the house, no compromise at all.
3. She gets probiotics in her milk when she is off any medication for at least 2-3 month (afternoon milk)
4. She eats fruits daily without fail- favourites being berries. Strawberries. raspeberries. blueberries, blackberries. grapes. chinese pear. apples.
5. The minute she doesn't does her poo, or her lips get red... we boil barley to be used as the water of her milk- to give her fibre. Helps to cool down her body due to heat as the weather can get crazy.
6. No chocolate, no milo or anything heaty especially in crazy weather like now.
If you realize that we never allow V to go into any heaty mode, its crazy that I have become so anal about it. But in this climate, they go into a heaty mode very fast. It attracts any form of viruses quickly... coz the body is warm and viruses multiple quickly? I really don't know how to explain... but I look back at my childhood and this works. Another thing I am pretty strict about is sweets... I realize most kids that are sugar magnet usually fall sick fast, I guess bacteria multiples fast too in such situation. Well, I'm not that anal that I ban them, but if she wants sweets, she need to brush that teeth... she wants that chocolate, im okie with a small piece. But milo is a nono... coz milo makes me heaty fast, I believe on days if V is heaty it makes it even worse fast. Some thing like why they allow milo during confinement? lol ...
Anyway these are the things we do daily to prevent her form common colds and flus which is working fine. We can't avoid big monsters diseases but the least we can do is help to monitor....
By the next morning, she was off school and we kept her at home. By nap time it shot up to 38.8 and drove her to the PD's immediately as there was suspected HFMD in school. Well lucky for her (or not) it was a viral fever and had medication; was warned against going to school UNTIL hfmd got cleared clean. Coz any child with viral fever gets it bad if they catch the hfmd.... she did at massive puke in the car on Aunty Nita and by night after one does of the magic viral medication. She miraculously recovered! I have no idea if it was the puke or the meds... but there was a youtube marathon and she insisted on baking today. I had to go and get the stuffs... wanted to upload her photos but have no idea how to do on my s3. *crap
Thought today I will share with you how we keep V real healthy as the counts of her catching something is real minimal (we are pretty impressed with her record) and its important that I should share with all of you what we do.
1.She has Everon C every morning when she wakes up, before she is whisked off to school -seriously not sure if it works but think it fights pretty well.
2. When she gets back from school/walks/outings, she has to wash her hands and feet before she steps into the house, no compromise at all.
3. She gets probiotics in her milk when she is off any medication for at least 2-3 month (afternoon milk)
4. She eats fruits daily without fail- favourites being berries. Strawberries. raspeberries. blueberries, blackberries. grapes. chinese pear. apples.
5. The minute she doesn't does her poo, or her lips get red... we boil barley to be used as the water of her milk- to give her fibre. Helps to cool down her body due to heat as the weather can get crazy.
6. No chocolate, no milo or anything heaty especially in crazy weather like now.
If you realize that we never allow V to go into any heaty mode, its crazy that I have become so anal about it. But in this climate, they go into a heaty mode very fast. It attracts any form of viruses quickly... coz the body is warm and viruses multiple quickly? I really don't know how to explain... but I look back at my childhood and this works. Another thing I am pretty strict about is sweets... I realize most kids that are sugar magnet usually fall sick fast, I guess bacteria multiples fast too in such situation. Well, I'm not that anal that I ban them, but if she wants sweets, she need to brush that teeth... she wants that chocolate, im okie with a small piece. But milo is a nono... coz milo makes me heaty fast, I believe on days if V is heaty it makes it even worse fast. Some thing like why they allow milo during confinement? lol ...
Anyway these are the things we do daily to prevent her form common colds and flus which is working fine. We can't avoid big monsters diseases but the least we can do is help to monitor....