Change II

we are going on a summer holiday


I did pray for change... that day in church, Father was saying stuffs about change etc, I turned to DD T and said heard that? he said to embrace change... DD T looked at me and was huh.. okie he wasn't listening... so I knew the message was for me.. So I prayed for "change" and the strength to do so that day in church... We are not regular church goers, shy to say, but we are good catholics in our own way, but its always interesting how messages are put across to us when we attend that occasional mass.

After I prayed for it, that 2 weeks was real havoc, we had arguments for goodness know what reasons, DD T and I don't quarrel, I just get frustrated trying to get things across to him. Man are made to be like that, they don't like change and hates when they are nagged at. Not that I nag but I have to repeat many times before it gets into his head. Its normal daily rants.. but this time, it got real bad as I got emotional, I guess I just got burn out. I mean who won't right?

I won't go into details but after my spate, he got things moving... we have been wanting to go on a holiday for a longest time.. but this time he knows I really needed it. We spoke about us and how it is time to let go... so we muster our courage and booked our holiday together without V! Hahahaha... Like its now or NEVER.. for if the 2nd one comes along, I will get all guilty stricken and want to spend more time with V before the 2nd one comes bullshit!

So this has to be a short short holiday.... can't do my Europe for the obvious reason of the lack of time... we don't do beaches anymore ever since DD T brought me to Fiji many years ago, and from then onwards, all beaches pale in comparison. We were left with asian countries, toyed with Vietnam, Taipei, Seoul... DD T had tickets to go Shanghai Expo and we were so close to booking it till we realized the queues in Expo are atrociously long.

So we want to go on a holiday but no destination!! Then there was a SQ promotion and there it was Beijing... I got excited as I have never been on that wall.. for I never had the energy or the time to enjoy China, the stays were too short for me to forgo my sleep just to sight see. Told DD T that I want to go Beijing, bring my camera, spend my time taking photos, carefree and relax... Do something I never get to do when I was flying, really la Europe I know very well but Asia ermmmm....

I'm a city slicker, I heart cosmopolitanism...

So V will be left at my in laws for the 4 nights, its the weekend and so she will be occupied with all the activities my in laws have prepared.. I believe shopping is tops..

We need to move on, must not be guilty stricken.. as people always say, the child really don't mind as long she is surrounded with love...